Feeling blue for real this time!

Well, the walls haven't been painted yet. That'll be a job for me to so. As I'm on my own now. After three years together, my partner and I have decided to go our separate ways. Its been the hardest decision we've made but we both know its for the best. We don't make each other happy anymore, and we've tried for the past year to do so, but it hasn't worked. And we want Murray to be as settled as possible and have the best chance in life. And thats not with parents who argue all the time.

I don't believe for one second that we weren't meant to be together in the beginning. We made an amazing child who is so special. But now, its time to let each other be as happy as possible.

Over the past few years, I have grown stronger in my faith, just a pity its further away from the life Calum leads. Maybe one day he'll see the light but he can only do that by finding out who he really is and what he really wants out of life.

So for now, I just need a little time to heal and get back on track. I'll try and post every now and then, but theres so much to do and sort out.

Take care everyone.

Love Char

xxx

Comments

[Joyce]

Dear Char... I haven't posted here before, but I do enjoy reading your lovely blog, I just wanted to say I am so sorry :-( You will be in my thoughts and prayers.... May God comfort you and give you peace as you go through these new changes in your life....

[Gill]

I'm sorry to hear your news. Been there. Just take each day at a time for now, keep life as normal as possible for Murray and you'll come through this. Life will get better for you in time.
We'll still be here when you're ready to post again.
Take care.
Gill

[Alison]

What sad news.
I am sending you tons of hugs for when your feeling low.
Take care,
Alison x

[Isobel]

I am really sorry to hear the news, but sometimes things like that are for the best. I will be praying for you and Murray and that life is gentle with both of you. Lots of hufs and take care.
x

[Sew Recycled]

Oh Charlotte, I am so sorry - I was wondering if everything was ok, as the tone of your posts seemed somewhat sad. Life will get happier, and like you say it is better for Murray to have happy parents! Good luck, take care
Emx

[Lisa]

Charlotte,

So sorry to hear your sad news, life is never easy, I know all about that right now too.

Sending you lots of love and hugs.

L xx

[tracy x]

sorry you are feeling so sad - but all these things do happen for a reason, and it just means you have to be brave and work through the hard times in order to reach happier days.
i will be thinking of you and sending lots of healing thoughts your way.
now go give that beautiful son of yours a giant squeeze!!
love tracy x

[Jess]

I'm so sorry to hear your news, although Danny and I are Ok at the moment, I often despair of how different we are, whether we really want the same things, and whether we should stay together.

like you, I met Danny when I was young (18) and he was 26, then we had ella when I was 20, which completly changed my outlook on life, it took longer for Dan to start behaving like a parent, but he's much better now.

Our problem at the moment is that he is unhappy here in england, and wants to move to australia or new zealand for a 'better life' but I love my home, and my family and I really don't want to go. But I've said I will give it a go if he manages to organise it, which is highly unlikely if you know Danny, anyway fingers-crossed. Life is definately not a bed of roses, though sometimes it might be nice if it was.

We will all be thinking of you and wish you luck on your new path with murray, and remember that you can have a good old moan when things get tough, and we will be here for you with messages of support.

lots of love, Jessx

[saraeden]

i wanted to write lots of things but they just dont seem to sound right !!
so i will say what my dad said to me .... lifes to short to be unhappy !! do what makes you happy and your child will be happy too x x x

i wish you all the luck in the world for the future ...sara x

[Nonnie]

I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. Look after yourself and little Murray. I'm sure that now you have made this very difficult decision life will start to get better for you. Take care and hope to see you blogging again when you are more sorted.

[carolyn]

Oh you poor darling what a difficult time this must be for you and Murray. I'm so sorry and I hope that things will get better for you from here on in.
Carolyn x

[Victoria May Plum]

Hi Charlotte

I am so sorry to hear your news, but remember that you are not on your own, as you will always have a beautiful and special little man in your life to comfort you (and you can always train him up to help with the diy, I can just see little Murray with a Bob the builder hat on wielding a hammer!).

And remember that if you ever want a chat about anything, me and Pebs are always just an email away...

Good luck
Hugs and kisses to you both xx
Victoria x

[mgm (formerly one blue egg)]

Aww Char:( I just now found you via pixiewood saw my 'former' name on your sidebar:)I am a first time visitor- about this post- You've both been honest and that in itself is awesome I've seen so many 'pretend' they are happy stay together for kids and then after half of their lives are already gone, they leave each other I'm thinking too bad you did not discover this sooner? As a child of a split marriage Your babe will be ok truly truly:) & all I can say is take care of you & give yourself as much time as it takes. & I'll be back! xo

[mgm]

I'm thinking too bad you did not discover this sooner?

well duh! not sure where that line came from but it sure in the heck didn't come out right. I'm sorry char.

[SheerLuxe]

Hello, I've just been reading your blog for the first time and I just wanted to say that my parents were never mean to be - they divorced when I was a baby - it has done me no harm and they are both remarried to much more suitable people and have new families with them.

So don't feel guilty. It's better to grow up in a happy home.

G :)